Dealing with a schizophrenic mother

This has been an ongoing problem all my life as any one else with a schizophrenic mother will testify. One sister has now fully succumbed and the other is pretty ill and prone to severe debilitating panic attacks. I continue to float with my head above water. It is always a choice- to fall into the darkness or to constantly strive for the light. I have recently been attacked by my sister's social worker and taken to court in Melbourne Victoria twice- challenging my ability to make decisions for her. It is a lonfg dreadful story and I was thrown into the snakepit of darkenss, doubt, insanity, distress, suspected heart attcks etc for a year- I am now emerging. I now understand more fully what my mother Olga had to face when she was a new traumatised post ww2 immigrant to Australia. (faced by smug people, speaking a language she did not understand) who could not receive such terrible suffering and told her to 'pull herself together' I have finally had some acknowledgement from the head of VCAT (a tribunal in Melbourne) acknowledging the distress caused by a social worker who dragged me tgrough the courts. But it is one of those paradoxical things- I had to be dragged so low in order to understand my mother's suffering more.